Days

Not dreaming that much anymore.

I miss it, haha. Dreamed so much this summer, it was crazy.

I'll find a way back to it, somehow.

Metric

...is genius.

Just saying.

Dunno how I feel.

It's a medium.

This week is gonna be crazy.

Let's...get at it.

Hoikity choik.

Pathetic...

Yeah, I know, but I can't stop...

I just want something to come and sweep me into a hurricane of emotion and action, so I can ignore the disgusting hole that I feel inside of me. I'm swelling up with this pressure, this force...

I feel so sad all the time. I want to sleep...

And I get it. You don't want to be friends anymore.

It's really hard for me to let you go, you know?
But I feel like I have to, because I can't just sit around hurting all the time.
You don't even talk to me, so this should be easy.
But just thinking of before, sitting in your room.
And thinking of the future, applying for everything and whatnot.
And thinking of now, and how hard this is.
I'm freaking stressing out.

Where did all that brightness go?

Please come back please please I need it now so much please...

Hi...

Lol you know...damn can't remember the name of the show...

OH FRIENDS. When Ross comes in, and he's depressed, he's always like, "Hi guys..."

Haha...I love that. I swear I'm Ross.

I had a pretty great day today. Getting used to my classes. Chilled with Cass at lunch. Got to see my boy SMILEEEEE.

...Not at me, but it's okay it's okay it's okay.

Volunteer is a little unsure for now, but I will put my faith into the universe and hope that it ends nicely. :( Pleaseeeeeee!

I feel like I'm coming down with something. Need to drink more water. Wow, I'm willingly drinking water. So grown-up.

Tomorrow is a blah day...But hopefully Cass will have lunch with us soon. (NO OFFENCE TO MY OTHER LUNCH LADIES + Tony.)

10:30 now. Tired. Need sleep...MIA...why...did we have a meeting..........

Confused..............

Going to do I dunno...waste time until bed time....

Night...........I love everyone. :)

PS: HOLIDAYS I CANT WAIT FOR HOLIDAYS.

:)

Art

I found a way to let you in
I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sight of you
I want you to stay away from my heart

Loving this right now.

:) Watch!

Been feeling kind of down, but I'm slowly making my way back up.
I've been thinking a lot (LOL SO THAT'S WHY I'M SAD!)
And I dunno, just feel like we all try to plug a hole inside of us
Some people will it with work, some with drugs

We all just do what we can to ignore it
I guess I can see where addiction and behaviour comes from


...morbid.

Go watch that vid. It's a cute video, great song. :)

DAY SEVEN

Day seven: four turn offs.

1) Dishonesty. If you're going to lie to me, then I'd rather not know you. Sorry. Be blunt, be direct, be truthful, and I'll love you for it, even when you hurt me. Lol, because you will hurt me. Truth hurtsssssssss.

2) A.S.S. Attention Seeking Syndrome LOL I LOVE THAT HAHAHAHAA. It's lame. Stop it. Don't be all emo in a corner wanting people to comfort you. Don't be obnoxious and flaunt yourself in front of everyone. Huh.

3) Manipulative people. Can't stand them. Don't test me. Don't try to bend me to your will. Don't use me. Eff I can't stand people who take advantage of other people. Can't stand people with two faces, jeez.

4) Depressing people. Hey, I angst and worry enough for the world lol. Don't you go and be emo either. Don't have to be a SUNBEAM or anything, but yo, be chill at least. I like chill people...even though I'm not one of them.

This was fast. 5 min, wham bam thank you ma'am. So easy finding things I don't like jeez. >:( BADDDDDD.