Desert Sand

LOL I don't know what Desert Sand is...oh holy crap I messed it up...it's DESERT STORM...something like that. Basically, it's a war movie...in the desert? Well that was the lead-up to...MY DREAM.

Okay so this morning, I had orchestra, so I had to wake up at like 6:45 AM. Well, that's when my alarm went off, at least. I woke up, turned off the alarm and went back to sleep. Then...I had...THE DREAM.

So I was writing an exam and it was in the morning, so when it was over, I went down and looked for my homegirls. I couldn't find anyone...for some reason I had written the exam with the younger grades...Dunno why. So I guess I go back to the class I had written the exam in, and then I fall asleep.

Zzz...
Zzz...
Zzz...

When I wake up, everyone is gone, and it is DARK OUTSIDE. I think to myself "HOLY CRAP ITS SO LATE, MY PARENTS WILL KILL ME". But when I check my phone, it's only 10 PM (I guess in my dream, 10 PM isnt late). So I think, "Alright, I'll just walk home then."

For some reason, I walk home a weird way...I go on the path to Mandy's house. I'm walking walking walking and then I get to an alley. By this time, its super dark. Before I enter the valley, I see this guy like a block away from me. I'm like "Enh, okay, whatever, what could he do?". I start jogging through the alley (I'm still scared, even though there was no one around!) and I look back...

AND THE GUY IS CHASING ME!!!!!!

So I start RUNNING all out, but he swoops around and maneuvers so that I go past him and he catches my collar. At this point, I am looking at the dream in a out of body perspective, and I see myself getting caught. However, "me" = a little blonde Caucasian girl, around 7 or 8 years old. I dunno what that man does to me, but I know it wasn't anything good.

SOMEHOW, I get home, and my kitchen has been COMPLETELY IKEA-ED. My cupboards were in funky green, blue, black and white designs and my kitchen table was those crappy folding ones with a set of folding chairs to match. I guess I don't tell anyone of my assault/rape/attack...

Then I'm older, and I become a soldier...and I am fighting in the desert. I fight fight fight and one day, while with my squadron (...is that what it's called?), I see the guy that hurt me all those years ago. And I am angry. I am so angry, I start beating on him, hitting him and hitting him, and my homeboys had to pull me off him. (This is still in outer body point of view.)

I think I really messed him up...but I didn't kill him. Then the dream cuts to another scene (it was really movie like...like i was watching things happen), and it's me with my husband? Brother? Son? It's a guy. LOL. And he tells me that I can't hold on to the past forever, I can't be angry forever. And then the dream ends.

WEIRDLY, THIS DREAM HAPPENED IN 15 MINUTES. My mom woke me up at 7 AM...15 min after I had turned off my alarm clock. Scary...